Being a teenager is hard

Being a teenager for me is confusing. Because you don't really know you're place in the world, are you a kid? Are you an adult? Well I guess some of the presure comes off or on depending on how strict your parents are. In my case I have parents that are both pretty relaxed about some things but crazy strict about other things. But it's not just parents it's everything else that's involved school, friends, relationships, image and well just overall life. It's hard for me because I'm forced to do all these things, and I have no say in them. Yes, they might be "good" for me, but who said I wanted to do it? For example certain classes. I never wanted to take math but guess what I have to. Or I don't always want to stay home on Saturdays and babysit my 10 year old little sister. I do them because I have to, not because I want to. But being a teenager isn't that bad to be honest because you have more fun than you do when you're 40. You go out with friends, party, have a good time and if you screw up people will be like oh look it's just a stupid teenager doing stupid things. For example if a 45 year old lady went skinny dipping, or jumped off a roof at 4 in the morning they would think she's full on crazy. But if a teenager did that they would "just be being teenagers" so that's the part I like about it. But honestly Its stressful. Mainly school for me. I try to be a good student but honestly sometimes it's just impossible. School is hell. Thankfully there Is a little something called music. When ever I'm stressed about a test, or about something going on I put in my headphones and I'm in my own world. But honestly I don't know how I feel about being a teenager, I honestly wish u was older. Just because I like the responsibility and making your own calls. But that being said I also miss being 6 and the hardest part of my life was colouring inside the lines. Being a teenager is 50-50. I don't really know what I think about it. 

Me + English

I've have a love/hate relationship with English. I like writting pieces like response paragraphs or how I felt about a book or story but I honestly hate things like poetry and reading. I find it so extremely boring. But I also think depending on the teacher I have it affects  my outlook on it. For example I had Ms.Nijjer last year and I honestly did not like her class or how she ran it. She had systems that I found pretty useless and complicated. So I was so unhappy in that class, not because of my classmates or the teacher because of the way she ran it. I think that even though it's a bad habit I try harder in classes where I like the teacher. For example English, I'm not bad at English to be honest. But last year I didn't try as much as I could have simply because I didn't like the teacher.and I ended up getting a 65%.  In grade 8 I did so much better. I ended up getting an 88% and honestly knowing my self I did try harder because I loved the teacher I had. But other than academically speaking I do like to write but I only to do it when I'm stressed out or something like that. I listen to music about twenty-three hours a day. I always have music playing! I also watch a lot of movies.  Thank god for Netflix! But I honestly do think I'll do well this year and I will try my best mainly because I like the system Mr. Neuf has like the whole idea of you controlling your learning. I like being in charge and responsible for my education. So I look forward to this semester!